1. Love... it's amazing the MANY different kinds of love there are in the world, the love of a friend, the love of a mother, the love of a child, the Love of a stranger.. it can mean so much and appreciated so little.
2. Sarcasm, I probalby use it much much to often, and people probably think I'm crazy for it, but it helps me live and focus on the lighter side rather than... well sadness
3. Children, yep this one is a wide open space, I have three kids they are all compete opposites of eachother, they all have great qualities and they all have some not so great qualities. It's amazing the love you can feel for your children, even in the moments when you'd like to be ripping your hair out, later reminissing with your best friend and laughing makes those moments so much better.
4. Laughter, it really is the BEST sound in the whole world!
5. Learning, everyone learns at different levels, 3 kids, at 3 different levels, with 3 different needs all at the same time (see above ripping hair out) I will be the first to admit that I am NOT smarter than a 5th grader and keeping up with my 6th grader is near impossible, however he is SUPER smart.. too smart for his own good, so smart that he has started to try and get by with out doing his school work, not just a little, not alot TONS, TONS and TONS of school work, this is NOT going over well at home, or school for that matter, and the idea of repeating 6th grade is laying very heavy on my heart. He has a wonderful teacher this year, one that actually cares about helping him, and not just pushing "the problem" to the next teacher, which was not the case last year, and I honestly feel that his teacher from last year was actually quite damaging in his educational road of life :( I knew it from the first moment I met her, and there was nothing I could do about it. My 1st grader however, has a completely different attitude towards school, he is there to impress, he LOVES the attention he gets from teachers and peers when he does well, he works extra hard at everything and is EXTREEMLY hard on himself when he makes a mistake or doesn't get something, it's so heartbreaking as his mother, luckily he has a fantastic teacher, really fantastic is an understatement, because she is so awesome there are no words to describe it, but anyhow, She caught on early how dissapointed in himself he can be when mistakes are pointed out to him and she does a fantastic job of wording things to not be harsh. And last but surely not least is little miss smarty pants who works so hard to try and keep up with her first grade big brother, I can read that too mamma, I can do that too mamma, why can't I go to first grade NOW? She is the one that gave her big brother his competitive desire for learning, because SHE taught him his ABC's and SHE taught him to write his name, and that wasn't going to fly so he had to up his game :)
6. Patience, I seem to have little these days, I just dont have time for it, but I NEED to force myself to make time for it because all the yelling is getting me no where. I'm not really sure when I lost it, because I used to have TONS of patience, but now, not so much, I am always rushing and always busy trying to do something or working on a plan to do something, or running someone somewhere or helping someone with something. Somewhere in the midst of all of that my patience ran off :(
7. Attitude, This year I am working on my attitude towards life, its not the easiest thing in the world, I have alot going on right now, some that I lay out like an open book and some that are self demonds I need to destroy. My overall attitude is not healthy, its not kind, it is the attitude of a broken soul, a lost broken soul, that is struggling to stay afloat and striving to be better for the sake of her children.
8. Sleep, I don't.. not often, not long, and if I do, I'm usually a bear afterwards because I hate waking up LOL Usually a "night" of sleep for me is much like last night, 12:30am fall asleep, 1:40am wake up to L coughing, go to kitchen get her some cough medicine, slather on some vicks on her feet, 2:30am finally fall back asleep, 3am Husband comes to bed and wakes me up, spend the next 30 minutes trying to get comfortable enough to fall asleep again, which is usually just in time for L to wake with another coughing fit, give her a neb treatment, prop up pillows to sit up and hold her in bed while trying to sleep until my alarm starts going off at 6am, text Z, yes I know that is terrible but remember I have a sleeping 58 pound weight on my chest and generally a 95 pound weight on my feet by this point. if he doesn't come in to tell me he is up by 6:40 when I have to wake up Pd then I attempt to roll L off of me get him up get him fed, lucky for me Z is capable of all of this on his own, send Z out the door by 7:30, go out start the car to warm up to take PD to school at 7:45am, and IF I am lucky, I might get home before L realizes I left and get to snuggle up with her for another hour or two, but chances are she realizes I left her with daddy and she is NOT happy about it :( If you are wondering why I dont try to sleep earlier, its because I have horrifying nightmares, they become unbearable anytime sleep seems to find me before 11pm, which happens to be the same time my husband gets off work and either starts calling or texting me, which only adds another moment of being woken up... did I mentionhow much I HATE being woke up?
9. Creativeness, I have a serious case of obsessive creativity if there is such a thing, I have it, ask anyone that knows me, even if they only slightly know me, they probably know my brain never stops, itis constantly think of things to do. CONSTANTLY, I love to make stuff, I love to make stuff for other people, I love the smile that things I create can put on other peoples faces, I LOVE smiles.
10. Easter, I think I have Easter fever, my mind is consumed with Easter baskets for this year, I always make Easter baskets for a few of my special friends, my neices and nephew, and this year will be no different, but finding the time to make things to hide in the baskets this year seems near impossible since I am getting no time away from L with her not feeling well.
soooo, there it is, my first 10 on tuesday.
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